I am totally helpless.
What I mean is that I used to be able to do everything, now after years of paying people, I can’t do a thing, or I am hesitant to do it, thinking I can’t do it.
My car needs antifreeze, I am not sure how to do it or how to buy it. I know where to buy it, but I’m not sure if there is a certain type. When I was younger I could to so much under the engine. Now I don’t even know how to open the car hood. Seriously. I’ve paid people to do things for me for too many years now. I lost my skills.
One time I changed someone’s tire. A stranger. I was walking by and saw the flat. I fixed it for her where I live in the village. Took me a few minutes. Now I don’t even have a jack – cars don’t come with jacks anymore. Look it up.
Now I call AAA or my car dealership and they do all that for me. Helpless.
I was the oldest child, so I helped my father with everything whether I wanted to or not, and this taught me how to do everything. When I moved into my first apartment, I painted, hung curtains, fixed broken closest doors, etc. Now I stare at them all and wonder what to do next.
I do have a toolbox, so that’s half the battle.
I have broken closet doors and a broken window and things that need fixing in the kitchen. I guess I could be handy, but I don’t want to be. In the past I guess I used to just do it as a habit. Car lightbulb out? I’ll fix it. Car needs STP (remember that?), I’ll add it.
I have a shirt I love. I got it years ago from J. Crew. It has a little hole in it where the seems separated. I used to be able to sew it up. But now I am hesitant to try. I can easily buy a new shirt, but I don’t think I’ll find the same one with the same look and feel. It’s sort of a sweater/sweatshirt. I don’t wear it often, so it’s lasted years.
If my mother was around, I would just bring it to her and she would do it for me. I guess I can bring it to the guy at the dry cleaners who does that kind of thing, but it’s sort of embarrassing to ask them to sew up a tiny hole, smaller than a dime.
If I manage to man up and sew it up, I’ll let you know. Man up and sew it up. Hmm, interesting concept.
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